Vairagya

Yesterday my house owner's mother (age more than 70) passed away. She suffered from meningitis which later resulted in a volley of other complications and finally she passed away yesterday morning. Something similar happened to my grand mother few months back. When somebody close to you (or anyone u know for that matter passes away), you start thinking about the purpose of life and such stuff. I am doing the same now. I know I will be out of this after a few days and will be running in the rat race again. But this time I want to document my feelings before I forget (I donno why, I may not look back at this piece of writing ever again but still).

Actually prior to this incident, during the past two weeks some similar thoughts (about how serious should we take our lives) have been crossing my mind.

Scenario 1: Dream or not to Dream
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We struggle all through our life as if we are unaware of the fact that we are going to end up in a situation like this. Thats probably a good thing. For example, you obviously don't want to leave studies aside thinking about your last days of life. And the converse is also helpful sometimes. Like thinking about the end of the days gives u the bigger picture of life, meaning failing an exam or not being able to fulfill a dream or two is not going to matter in the end. I am not encouraging people to be by saying this. All I am saying is there is nothing in life to get sooo much serious about because of which we should spoil our day to day lives .

Scenario 2: Dasvidaniya
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Recently I have seen this movie 'Dasvidaniya' (meaning Good Bye in Russian). The movie's caption was 'The best good bye ever'. After seeing the movie I thought 'Wow! the best movie ever!'. neways since this post is not about the movie I will refrain myself from praising it and continue with my boring philosophies :P.

So the movie is about the protagonist who is dying and wants to do all the things he wanted to do all his life. These things are not big dreams, all of them are small and simple. like learning guitar, meeting and spending time with old friend, a foreign trip and conveying his affection to his long lost love. After watching the movie one cannot stop thinking about what he/she wanted to do and couldn't do in their life, so did I. What I felt was, in the race to fulfill your dreams you tend to forget about pleasures, small pleasures.

After having said so much I don't know If I have said what I really wanted to say.

Dasvidaniya :)